an outlet

everyone needs to have an outlet to vent out their feelings, be it happiness, frustration, anger, sadness, yada yada yada. so yes, i am glad that i still remember the password to my blog.

today i am just plain upset, pissed, feeling crappy in general.

expectation gets you nowhere, but it is one aspect in life, my life, that i am yet to shake off.

what frustrates me is, the angrier i am, the more difficult it is for me not to cry. heck, it is just so embarrassing to be so angry yet feel tears gather in your eyes. for some reason, i associate crying as a symbol of weakness. i know, i know...everybody needs to have a good long cry once in a while, and i know, i know; crying does not symbolize weakness. but you know, the heart is much more difficult to conquer than the brain.

maybe it is high time indeed for me to resume my blog writing habit, as saved up emotions are not doing me any good.

this blog has been a home for my feelings. it has recorded years of my life, and it is not fair for me to give it up with a lame excuse such as no time. so still_figuring_out, here i come!